Friday, November 17, 2006

Tell Me Who I Am - Kirsten Nour Namskau

The title of this autobiography is an enigma. Is it a question? No, there is no question mark at the end of the sentence. Is it a challenge? Maybe, because the book tells us who Kirsten is, very much through her own eyes, a very personal reality. In fact, it seems to me there is a separate reality that exists within Kirsten's mind. I feel that the book is written by Kirsten(now) and she refers to certain events in her life I feel that there is a second Kirsten, a Kirsten(then).

This is only my perception. It is a very personal interpretation of what Kirsten has written.

In the preface to the book, Kirsten wonders what is the difference between intuitive knowledge and madness. What is the difference? she asks.

In the end, after reading this book, you are forced to ask yourself, was it real? Are the experiences mentioned by Kirsten real?
The multitude of brainwashing sessions, for example. What really were they?
Was the government really after Kirsten, as she claims?

These are just a few examples of incidents within the book.
Again, I have to say, this is my personal view of how I interpret and understand what Kirsten is writing about.
Then there is the Freemasons. They have something against Kirsten and pursue her throughout her life.

Is it persecution, is it brainwashing or is it paranoia?
Don't forget it's the rational Kirsten who is telling this story. I can't stop thinking that there is another Kirsten, deeply buried in the past, in her experiences that cannot be recalled or mentioned.

What is the nature of this "brainwashing" she so often refers to. Could it be Electro-shock therapy? I don't know and Kirsten isn't saying.

There is an episode near the end of the book when Kirsten mentions how her family track her down but she disowns them, doesn't recognise them or something else, I'm not sure.

In fact, what I'm trying to suggest is that we should, and I do, read between the lines, there is something sinister or unexplained that seems to be beyond the narrators grasp or comprehension.

What is all this reference to hallucinatory drugs that are given to Kirsten against her will?
It is here, that I seem to come to my opinion that somewhere, somehow, somebody is trying to treat Kirsten with medication but things aren't happening as they're supposed to happen.
This is why I refer to the failure of modern medicine, in my first review of this book.

I am aware of the various psychiatric diseases that exist, but only in terms of common symptons, such as delusion, paranoia, hallucinations, hearing voices.
My wife has her own demons to deal with, she has bi-polar disorder that manifests itself as either chronic depression or manic activities including alcoholism. In her case, modern medicine is a miracle that has saved her. I don't know about other people and how successful modern medicine is in taming their demons.


Jim Belshaw said...

Lexcen, what are the publishing details for the book?

Kirsten N. Namskau said...

Jim belshaw: "Tell Me Who I Am"
ISBN: 18440 17370
Author: Kirsten Nour Namskau
Publisher: Athena Press LTD

Lexcen: Thank you for the review. My answer to you are too long, so I will put it up as a blogg on my site. OK

Lexcen said...

Jim, I suggest you try if you want to buy a copy. Australian bookshops are so appalling - there is a need for a blog on this subject.